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Of Blood And Memory

by To End It All

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Introduction 01:51
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In an empty space A clot formed Of blood and memory Tightening its grip within Hues of red and violet Lashed in place With bonds of life Snap in an instant Burst like blisters
3.
Hunt, hunt, hunt With poisons, swords, and guns Hunt, hunt, hunt Implode, explode, destroy Hunt, hunt, hunt Root out the source of all this misery Hunt, hunt, hunt With poisons, swords, and guns…
4.
Sorrow, envelop me Carry me through my grief Sorrow, comfort me Grief imprison me Patience as virtue Foreign tissue Hidden within my skin Sinking deep within
5.
Turning to my left, with only my neck and when I Turn it to the right, there's truly no escape with how my Body has been buried And now my face is bruised and bleeding When the first stone impacted my nose and my Collarbone was shattered with the second stone and my Sockets are crushed My eyes explode, all flesh is bruised and bleeding With the third stone, my breast burst open and my Heart began to race, wishing for a noose, oh a Bullet would be better Than this punishment so agonizing Every bone is shattered, every bruise is black and my Body is broken, my brain exposed for all to See if they wish, And what did I do to deserve it? Useless love Is it all for nothing? Regret it all, regret it all And scream aloud The bruised are winning Useless love Is it all for nothing? Regret it all, regret it all And tell myself - “The bruised are winning…”
6.
So this is the only place where nothing gets inside?
7.
Oyasumi 08:32
In mother's arms so gentle In mother's arms so warm I never thirsted or hungered And ever wanted to linger In mother's house so welcome In mother's house so warm I never thirsted or hungered and ever wanted to linger Oyasumi…
8.
Elegy 04:24
On this, my final day Traces of youth ease away Slowly turning on a dime In the shallows of the mind I fall, I fall, I fall And when I call I hear, I hear, I hear Nothing at all, at all On this, your final day Traces of youth ease away Slowly turning on a dime On the gallows of the mind You fall, you fall, you fall And if you call, you call You hear, you hear, you hear No voice at all, at all

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Vinyl edition arrives with enclosed poster insert.

Here we illuminate sorrow, grief, loss, and how losing one integral to our sense of place in the world expels us from the houses of confidence, confuses the mind, propels our hearts through places of knives, anger, nostalgia, fondness, flagellation, acute pain, smoldering anxiety, sunken affect, tension, blankness, bliss, relief, in no predictable or necessary order.

Rituals and traditions cannot offer all that’s needed as time races on. How can we continue once we’ve lost the physical presence of one so cherished? We meet these moments sometimes with fullness, or in retreat, in terror or in calm acceptance. We may at one point refuse to befriend death…and yet embrace it as a confidant in another mood, each day both a whisper and a thousand hours, each night both meditation and curse.

These songs are meant as temples of mourning, of fire, of blood, of memories, built upon the loss of mothers, of grandmothers, of every past and future beloved.

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released April 19, 2024

album tracks credits:
Joy Von Spain - voice, keyboards, piano, guitar (Tracks 1 - 8)
Masaaki Masao - samplers, production (Tracks 1 - 8)
Lori Goldston - cello (Tracks 1, 4, 7, 8)
Anne K. O'Neill - add’l voice, guitar (tracks 1 & 6)
Recorded & mixed 2021-2022 by JM McNulty at Killroom, Seattle
Add'l recording 2021 by Steve Ditore at Jack Straw Cultural Center, Seattle, WA (tracks 1, 4, 7, 8)
Mastered by James Plotkin
Artwork by Anne K. O’Neill
Layout & graphic design by Paul Pavlovich

bonus tracks credits:
09 Xiphoid Dementia / Egan Budd, electronics
10 Test Frenzy / JM McNulty, electronics & guitar
11 Thief / Dylan Neal, electronics & programming
12 Blood Box / M. Hensley, electronics
13 (irr.app.ext) / MS Waldron, electronics & guitar
14 Joy Von Spain, voice & piano; Lori Goldston, cello
15 The Unbodied Air / Erik Moggridge, voice; Dylan Desmond, bass & synthesizers

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